Anyway, here's my little update:
I took a new job, in a new department - still with the same corporation (don't want to give details....most Pals know) - it's much busier, which I like. I feel more productive and using my time faithfully. The job is temporary for 1 year and then I will have to go back to the other job where there is barely anything to do....but I am sure God will work that all out next year.
I feel I've been on a path of renewal....it's been a very difficult path but necessary. As I look over the last 4 years I see where I wasn't being faithful or trusting in God's good plan for me...mixing with folks I shouldn't have mixed with. Going off the WAY only leads to increased suffering. Although some suffering is good for the Christian; there is redemption in suffering after all - our ultimate redemption is found in Christ's suffering. Suffering can lead to a much deeper, meaningful relationship with God. It can lead to maturity and wisdom ...if we allow it to take us there and not become resentful towards God. I think I've often been resentful and self-righteous in my attitude. We have an Enemy who loves to encourage us in our suffering times towards resentment. I pray for all Christians to not give the devil a foothold in times of trial, but to have the Grace of God to remain and persevere. God bless you all.