Monday, September 28, 2009

Isaiah 45:1-6

".....I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you the treasures of darkness...."

I have been going through "hell" for a few days. I will return to work in two weeks and anxiety is high in my spirit. I'm being forced into a corner in a sense - my doctor signed off on an insurance form without meeting with me first to discuss the content. He acted very cold and indifferent towards me last Friday. I was supposed to do a trial return to work in November but the insurance company faxed a form with a very different story and the doc signed it. But in all of this "hell" and almost despairing over the weekend I know God is in control - this is all His plan - not the plan of men. God has been allowing a "pressure cooker" to build in me - it's time to make serious decisions. He is saying to me, "whom shall you serve - men or God? It is time to decide little one. Make your choice - security this world offers or the security of serving the Living God who called you to go to my harvest field. Look with spiritual eyes - NOT the eyes of men who do not know me - who do not serve me."

I am in need of much prayer support in the weeks ahead as I return to the job while taking certian steps towards leaving on mission - hopefully by next spring/summer - permanently. I will try and either sell my condo for money or rent it out for a steady "income" as a missionary. Please pray much for me as I make decisions according to God's will.
Yours in Christ,
Little Missionary.


Felisol said...

Dear Julie LBM,
The words from Isaiah were the ones I "got" as an answer when everything seemed dark. In Norwegian the words go"Thou shalt find treasures hidden on secret places."
Well, I did wait and the treasure was revealed to me.
I will pray for you. Please take one step and one day at a time.
Tomorrow has enough with its own troubles.
From Felisol

Julie (Little Missionary) said...

Hey thanks Felisol, it's sad that the Pals site seems to have diminished. It's a bit discouraging to find only your comment but I guess that's live, people are busy and move on....guess, I have too as I "disappear" now and again. Please know that I've appreciated your comments and prayers so much and look forward to our homecoming meeting in Heaven someday! Peace of our Lord to you always.

Little Missionary

Terry said...

hi little missionary julie...i am so sorry that i have not been here for over a week and never even saw this post of yours.
i feel so bad that you have to go back to work and you still have issues.
is it the insurance company's fault and can't you phone up the federal disability department.
i know that the provincial one is very cold at heart but it seems the federal one has more feelings.
felisol has been always such a great help to me little missionary julie...she never forgets us even though she has health problems herself.
we will never forsake the pilgrim pals and never forget you either little missionary julie....we love you...we will pray for this latest trial that you are terry

i wonder where amrita is?