".....I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you the treasures of darkness...."
I have been going through "hell" for a few days. I will return to work in two weeks and anxiety is high in my spirit. I'm being forced into a corner in a sense - my doctor signed off on an insurance form without meeting with me first to discuss the content. He acted very cold and indifferent towards me last Friday. I was supposed to do a trial return to work in November but the insurance company faxed a form with a very different story and the doc signed it. But in all of this "hell" and almost despairing over the weekend I know God is in control - this is all His plan - not the plan of men. God has been allowing a "pressure cooker" to build in me - it's time to make serious decisions. He is saying to me, "whom shall you serve - men or God? It is time to decide little one. Make your choice - security this world offers or the security of serving the Living God who called you to go to my harvest field. Look with spiritual eyes - NOT the eyes of men who do not know me - who do not serve me."
I am in need of much prayer support in the weeks ahead as I return to the job while taking certian steps towards leaving on mission - hopefully by next spring/summer - permanently. I will try and either sell my condo for money or rent it out for a steady "income" as a missionary. Please pray much for me as I make decisions according to God's will.
Yours in Christ,