Sunday, February 17, 2008


The doctor came in last night and said that things are looking grim. They took some x-rays and the tumor in her lungs has grown substancially. He said she can't go on for long breathing the way she is. He is putting her in hospice. He doesn't want to move her so hospice will come to her room. My Dad and I are supposed to meet them later today. My Dad said she was crying because she doesn't undestand why she can't come home. She has a home care person so she thinks she should be able to come home. The doctor said she is progressing too rapidly to have someone take care of her at home. He told my Dad that he wants to sedate her so she isn't so aware of the situation. She is very confused which only makes it harder. I think sedating her will be the best thing for her. I hate for her to lay thinking all sorts of awful thoughts. I leave you with these two pretty cool things she said when Chad and I were up there Friday night when she was in the ER. First she was sleeping and woke up and said It is well two times then fell back to sleep. Then she told me and Chad she kept waking up to the most beautiful orange flowers.Please pray for our family for strength for whatever the days ahead hold.Thank you all for you prayers and love.update: It's 4:10, I just got home and I am going back to the hospital at 6:30. At 7:00 my Dad and I have to meet with hospice. She was pretty well sedated when I was up there. In and out a few times but mostly out. She is swelling more and more. Her wedding ring is now swollen on her finger. They are going to give her another treatment of lasiks (sp?) to bring down the swelling. I will post again when I have another update...Amber


hebrews 11:1 said...

OH! I don't know what to say...I feel so awful...I recall like it was yesterday the day my grandfather went into hospice. We were visting him at home, he went into the hospital the next day, and into hospice the next, and died two months later (he died of lung cancer).

My prayers are with Bear, Amber, and her family!


Felisol said...

Dear Amber,
I am praying for your Mom even as I am writing. What awful news.
I pray that God may go by your right hand as is his promise. That he'll carry you when you are too tired to move your feet, and then let you be young again, like the eagle.

Precious Lord, take my hand,
Lead me on, let me stand,
I am tired, I am weak, I am worn.
Through the storm, through the night,
Lead me on to the light.
Take my hand, precious Lord,
Lead me home.
Thomas A. Dorsey
and Felisol

Pilot Mom said...

Amber, we are lifting you and your family, as well as Arlene, up before the Lord. May He comfort you and bring you strength during the days ahead, encouragement from believers around you, and peace for when she meets her Lord face to face.

My mother died a year ago this past Jan 29th and it is still fresh in my mind. I feel like I know exactly how to pray for. Be sure that He is beside you, just like Felisol says. He is preparing the way for her coming Home to Him. :)