Thank you all so much for your responses to my last posting. I am blessed by each and every comment! Thank you Pilgrim David for your posting and for bringing us a forum where we can be vulnerable and pray for one another in our struggles.
I am convinced that it was not Todd that sat across from me and smiled in an almost mocking way. For our battle is not against flesh and blood - we know that it is the powers of darkness. When this truly hit me tonight I realized I can't abandon Todd to the enemy! Even in my saddness and discouragement I must continue to pray by the grace of God! It is my calling right now - my duty even - to pray for Todd to be released from darkness! This realization along with your comments and encouragement causes me to renew my determination to pray for Todd's salvation and others like him, (Dad Golden!!).
Well my friends, it was a long week - lots of ups and downs - between hunting for a condominum, making and offer and loosing out; Todd's rejection of God, and feeling tense in the workplace (that post is for another time) -- I'm very tired - time for bed.
God bless each of you. I will remember you all in my prayers tonight - for those who are ill and those who have family members who are ill - for all the other needs and desires each of us have - I place them now at the most Holy feet of Jesus - Our Lord, Master, Brother, Friend and Saviour! Thank you Father God for being so patient with your children (especially me :)
Julie (Little Tired Missionary)