Lazy Sunday Afternoon

My heart goes out to Terry and her mom. I'm praying Terry! I certainly relate as my mom is beginning to despair. Her illness is a mystery. She has been extremely weak for about two months now. Weak to the point that she can't even sit up, never mind stand! Her appetite is also decreasing now. Mom had a chest x-ray last week and a spot showed on one lung, so they did a CAT-Scan to confirm and the spot was still there. However, they are not pursuing that!

On another subject.....

I'm applying for an administrative position with the paramedics. The competition closes on Wednesday this week. This particular position is one that I've been hoping and praying for several years would open up. When I saw the job posting tears came to my eyes. I just couldn't believe it! You can't imagine how much I want this position! With my training as a paramedic and all my years experience in administrative jobs my Resume should get noticed. I want a new beginning - new home, new job and just a fresh start all around! I'm desperate for it! And because I'm so desperate for it, I am experiencing major doubts that God will give me this job. For some reason I figure the more I want something, the more God will withhold - as if he is only gives grudgingly and would not want to bless the likes of me!

Heavenly Father, forgive me for thinking of you as a reluctant, grumpy Father who isn't concerned with blessing your children with good things. Father, in Jesus' Name, I come to you like the persistant widow, and I boldly ask you to open the door to this job! Lord you can open this door - that I have full confidence in - nothing is not impossible for you! So, please let them notice my Resume and call me for an interview. I need your supernatural intervention Lord God. I give you all the glory and praise. I love you Lord and I hate doubting your goodness. You know I want to honour you by working wholeheartly for your Kingdom! Lord you know I want to continue to go on mission trips and Lord, perhaps this is just my dream but I feel if I get in with the paramedics I may be able to take advantage of some re-training which I can then bring to those in a third-world nation who can't afford medical attention! O God, you know this is a profound desire in my heart - it comes from your Son Jesus who ministered to the sick and lonely; the lost and rejected ones!

Whew....that just poured out of my heart Pals!

Little Paramedic Missionary :)