NOTE: The Pilgrim, David, accidentally deleted the picture that Little Missionary had posted with this entry. Sorry, Julie! Please add another and be assured of the prayers of all the Pals.
That's okay Pilgrim David - I forgive you :)
Things have gotten ugly at work again. I am beginning to feel bullied by a certain admin. She attacked me today when I told her a personal question she asked me about my mother in front of other staff made me uncomfortable. (My mom is now in the hospital with major depression). Anyway, it's way too long of a story to go into and not appropriate here but please pray for my emotional well being - it is being highly compromised the longer I am exposed to this individual. I was so distraught today - I sobbed so hard that I actually broke a blood vessel on my face under my eye! I am beginning to realize that I am completely fragile - I have never totally healed from the trauma and cruel words spoken to me by two years ago and my subsequent attempt to end my life! Within two weeks of that trauma I was back at work - acting like all was great and normal.
I am praying about taking time off work and going to a local retreat centre to heal. I honestly don't know what else to do. I feel so backed in a corner - trapped and scared. And yet God in His mercy gave me a wonderful scripture earlier this week - He knew I would need it: Isaiah 41:10-13
God please protect me, defend me and deliver me! God please open a door to a job in another department that is a healthier environment for me!