Thank you for mommy and daddy and for my brothers and sisters and please God, give me a good day. Amen
As an adult who now has an intimate relationship with Jesus...it goes more like this
Thank you for loving me and breathing new life into me. Use me this day to bring glory to Your kingdom
I read Julie's post from yesterday and returned to the site several times in an effort to comment. I remained silent, knowing others would and could minister to her in my moment of lack. Often times when someone's experiences parallel mine, I am not fully equipped to respond. I have to remind myself that the long and brutal assault on my heart is more easily fought when I take it to Jesus first.
I am always reminded as a writer, that words are powerful. Love is one of the more beautiful words of our language because it is one that always seemed easy for me to do....easy, until I realized it is not just a pleasing sentiment or passionate emotion...it is a commandment..."thou shalt love." Which brings me to two words that are more difficult for me to live out....relinquish and obedience. My question then is ... can I under stand how to give or receive love without relinquishing all of my life in obedience to the commandment? I don't think so.
Which then brings me to the refining process, the fiery trials, the dying to self. But oh how well God knows my heart and He knows the experiences and emotions that I continue to allow satan to control...and oh, how well I know satan loves to invade, manipulate and disable my journey....words such as fear, anger, lust, jealousy.
So Julie, I read your words and my heart aches with you , I cry with you...and I find that I, myself must desperately cling to my Father, draw near to Him and ask Him to deliver me from the grips of satan which lead to oppression, depression. I ask Him to bring me to a place of decision...where I can once and for all relinquish the fear, the doubt and anger, to a place where obedience leads to some unimagined solution....it is where I will find my blessing and where I will experience my greatest love story....
Please dont't stay away too long
Praying for you