Wednesday, July 11, 2007


Fellow Pilgrims, I bless you and thank you from the bottom of my heart for your prayers. God knew I would need this community!

I will not lie - I am crying much tonight. My heart aches - not just because of Todd, it's much deeper - it's over another lost dream - there have been so many it seems. I always think they are God's dreams for me, but I guess they are just mine. I know I should praise Him now - but I can't - there is just too much pain. To think, just 3 days ago I was praising him for a wonderful evening with Todd and the hope of a new relationship. But that joy ended so abruptly - I feel that God is punishing me at times.

As David cried, so do I, "My thoughts trouble me and I am distraught at the voice of the enemy....My heart is in anguish within me....(psalm 55)

I will ask you for one more prayer for Todd - that he will have a kind heart towards me (we do work in the same building), and that he will not judge me harshly for telling him that story about Chris - I know my anger came out and that must have turned Todd off. I was really was a fool and disrespectful to Chris, to Todd and most of all to the Lord. I WAS NOT A WITNESS FOR THE LORD AS I HOPED!



passing-thru said...

JULIE -------------------

U MUST for your sake , rest, the other nite - u went over 24 hours without sleep -- ANYONE would be frazzled and the loose ends would showing --
NO DAMAGE TO TODD - NONE - it was a simple date, no committments - u just met him - so don't let the devil fool U into thinking its more than what it was --- Chris is in the past -------
OK -------- OK ------------ OK
U HAVE A NEW CHURCH - U WILL FIND NEW FRIENDS - life at work will be JUST FINE - your a wonderful woman with a heart for GOD -- LET GOD WORK HIS WORK IN U AND FOR U TO STOP WORKING HIS WORK IN U -- we would all fail if we had to "DELIVER THE GOODS" -- LET GOD BE GOD IN YOUR LIFE - and stop listening to the devil ----

NOW - DON'T MAKE ME PREACH TO U ----LOL ------ :-)

Terry said...

You are crying and we are crying to sweet Julie.
But the tears will be a healing and God is putting them all into His bottle!!

I hope you sleep tonight.

Psalm 127:2 "It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows, for so he giveth his beloved sleep."

As our other Julie told you , just let the Lord wrap His arms around you and you rest!..Love Terry

David Warren Fisher said...


I say a hearty "AMEN" to what Passing-Thru said...and what Terry comforted you with.

PLEASE don't be so hard on yourself! You prayed that you would be a good witness. We don't know what the eternal perspective is. Maybe more was accomplished than you could imagine.

Please rest tonight!

WE love you!

David & all your PILGRIM PALS