I'm feeling like a fool tonight folks - and not a fool for Christ. I decided to email Todd this afternoon at work, (we both work for the City of Ottawa - not the same dept. though), and ask him to go for coffee. I was hoping to nuture our new friendship and eventually share about Christ with him. I have to admit I am interested in dating Todd - he is a nice guy and quite handsome too! So I guess there are mixed motives in my heart!
Now the Enemy has me feeling quite guilty about this. I keep having thoughts like, "Jesus will not give me an opportunity to share about Him with Todd because I am really just looking to get into a relationship with Todd." True to Satan's style he mixes some truth in with lies to confuse us.
Since I had not heard from Todd by the time I left work at 4 p.m. I thought right away, "yup, I'm bad. God isn't going to honor my desire to share about Christ will Todd because I'm attracted to the guy. I don't deserve the chance to share with Todd because my motives are mixed!" So, I just logged on to my work email (I can do that from home), and sent another email to Todd saying that I shouldn't have email him about going for coffee and I'm sorry if I made him uncomfortable. Todd will probably think I'm nuts now and perhaps I've ruined this very new friendship and the chance to win another soul to Christ!!
Lord forgive me for alway getting ahead of you!