Dear PILGRIM PALS:
Warm, hearfelt greetings from the weary Pilgrim! It's been quite a day...well two days actually.
We had such a relaxing time at Elim Lodge and I know assuredly that God had ordained that we be there for those six days. The weather wasn't the best but on the cloudy and rainy days we were forced to rest, relax and unwind. God knew what He was doing! He always does!
Entrance back into everyday living has been tough. REAL TOUGH! Adjusting to our busy and hectic schedules is not easy. Carol has to be fitted with a heart monitor on Tuesday so she'll be driving to Toronto for that. Matthew's 12th birthday is on Wednesday. Nathan turns 11 next week on Sept. 6th.
When I checked the mail box at my office I found absolutely NOTHING! NADA! ZERO! We live by faith with no set income, trusting God to provide through the people of His choosing. We depend on gifts and offerings from the Lord's people as we serve Him through Epistle Sports Ministries. The mail box was empty and the end of the month is quickly approaching! My stomach was in knots yesterday and today. I felt that I was in a dark, deep hole. I kept yawning and sighing throughout the day...yesterday and today.
This morning we attended church but I went with a heavy and an unprepared heart. Worship was difficult! The speaker was challenging but I left feeling empty. I discovered that I had locked the keys in the van and we had to call CAA to come and open it for us. Dear friends from the church went and bought a dozen Tim Horton's donuts for us while we waited to get into the van. What a special couple!
This afternoon we went to two OPEN HOUSES to check out two homes that seemed interesting. The thought of selling our home, as you know from previous posts, sickens me. Going home from Elim Lodge, we were faced with more boxes waiting to be packed to take to storage. The realization that we MUST sell is beginning to sink in. I don't like it one bit!
Please pray, dear ones, that God will work an incredible financial miracle in the next few days. WE DESPERATELY NEED ONE! I've been encouraging you to PRAY BIG and yet, in my own heart of hearts, I sometimes feel that it's pointless. Instead of praying for the $30,000.00 which will get us out of our immediate debtload, I should be praying for $300,000.00 which would pay off the mortgage and get us on our feet. God's hands are not tied that He can't work a miracle. I need to make sure that I'm without any known sin and trusting God to do what He said He would.
So, dear ones, as I prepare to lay down to sleep, my heart is aching and I'm discouraged more than I have been in a long, long time. Usually discouragement with me, only lasts one day but it's been two and things seem to be getting darker. PLEASE PRAY!
Well, I've unburdened my heart! Thanks for loving me and for your ongoing prayer support and encouragement. It is priceless! Jehovah-Jireh will provide. I'm just not very good at waiting for His timing.
Trusting God together,