Saturday, August 25, 2007
A Word from God
This morning before leaving for an appointment with my Christian counsellor, I randomly flipped opened my Bible to Nehemiah and my eyes immediately fell on these words..."Let us start rebuilding." So they began this good work." chapter 2 vs 18b. Now, I know we must take the Word in context and becareful with interpreting, however, I immediately sensed God was saying to me, "I am rebuilding what has been torn down in your life. I am beginning a new and good work in you." During my counselling appointment I had a bit of a revelation - as a child I suffered a lot of trauma in my family and at the hands of some teachers (that isn't the revelation), what never occurred to me until today was that what was "stolen" from me was who God had intended for me to be! Suddenly I thought, "Who would I have been if I hadn't had certain things happen to me? If I had had good male role models would I have gotten married and had a family and not constantly chosen guys who were not good for me?"
God does have a perfect will for us, a plan, however His permissive will allows others to exercise their free will and sin against us - unfortunately we all sin against each other. When we are young, innocent children, these sins can shape our lives in negative ways that God never intended. Here's the really neat revelation I had: God will work with what we have become anyway! If we allow his grace to move in our hearts He can still work in and through us to bring good into the world around us! He can and will rebuild what has been torn down in my life - in your life! So, that's great news. The difficulty will be allowing Him to work through the pain - deep pain in my heart - stuff buried for years. I want to see a new "building" in myself in the next year - I have opened myself up to Him to rebuild and I want to see the results! Thank God I have you Pilgrims praying me through this!!
Blessings to you all on the Lord's Day!
Love your sister in Christ Jesus,
Julie (Little Missionary)