Well, today was not quite as good as the last two days. And yet, not totally bad after all was said and done. All day - every single minute - I was literally obsessed with thinking about T. ...his salvation mostly, but hey, I have to be honest here - you already know I am strongly attracted to T. also! I know in my heart and gut it isn't what God wants - at least not right now. T. has his own obsessions going - mainly work, work and more work!! He needs to find his true value in Christ. I wanted to email him so bad today, as I want to build the friendship with him to witness to him!
"How then can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them?....Romans 10:14
"How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news...." Isaiah 52:7
So, between getting my work accomplished today - I prayed desperately all day in my heart - while driving - while working - even in the washroom!! Prayer is good - but it was HARD work today!
I thought often of the scripture, "My grace is sufficient for you......"
2 Corinth. 12:9
And Grace I Got! I did not email T. today.
What a silly battle in light of the other battles going on here with cancer etc! But thank you Pals for letting me air my struggle.
One another note: I'm also desperate for God's direction tonight. At 7 p.m. I will be meeting with my friend Debbie. She is in a lot of turmoil - she attends the church I used to and the "toxicity" of that place is getting to her. But it isn't as easy for her to leave - she has a husband and a child to consider. However, I am highly concerned about her mental health. I want to give godly - wise advise, so please pray for my words to be guided by the Holy Spirit.