Just a quick note - don't want you all to worry. I've been feeling so discouraged off and on this summer because I'm in a new church and it's a very hard transition. Sitting alone in the "pew" is ...frankly, an awful experience for me. I don't even know if I'll go on Sunday - it's always a last minute decision. Being alone and feeling somewhat isolated from other Christians right now as I transition into the new church is dangerous ground - it's the domain of Satan - he is loving this - I'm alone and lonely - most of my friends are too busy on weekends with their own families so I spent a lot of time alone. Satan proceeds to play mind games with me - he plays on my fears...."you'll always be alone....you'll never get married .....you'll never have friends in the new church.....and forget about missions!" Part of me thinks, "boy I must be a dangerous Christian or Satan wouldn't bother with me!" and part of me just thinks, "It's not Satan - it's me - I'm just a hopeless case and even God has had it with my lack of faith and trust in Him."
Thanks for your ongoing prayers.