In response to passing-thru's post below..... Yes, I'm bolted to the ROCK - standing on His promises, seeking first His face. Not always easy but persevering nevertheless. Today I had a bit of an Epiphany in regards to a certain fellow - you all know who I mean. I had a strong sense at one point through the day, the Holy Spirit spoke clearly: "Julie, work comes first to him - when he was married his work came first. You will never even come in second in his life - you will come in third after his children. I do not desire this kind of relationship for you. Leave it alone." I sensed that God doesn't even rate on the scale of T's heart. He works two jobs - he doesn't need too - he is in a very well paying position with municipal government and yet he works many evenings/weekends as a security guard for events such as, concerts, Senator hockey games. It's like he is obsessed with working....perhaps he is burying his hurt heart in his work or perhaps that is where he is trying to gain his value - how sad, when I knowexactly where he will gain his true identity - in Christ Jesus!
I sensed today, I am not even to encourage a friendship with him by asking him to go for coffee as it will always be one-sided and I will eventually feel ripped off and hurt. So, I have two choices: heed the red flag the Holy Spirit has put up for me today. Or, ignore it and go for coffee with T. every once in a while - all the time hoping I'll begin to mean something more to T. No, my friends, I can not risk it. You all know my heart has suffered much in the last year. So I ask for your prayers that God will strengthen me in my resolve to heed the Holy Spirit's warning. This does not mean I won't be polite to T. when I see him around the building we both work in, but I must obey this warning to keep a "safe" distance....guard my heart O Lord!!
Thanks for your prayers!
Julie (little M.)