Friends, I am still very, very low these days - it seems every second month I am just beside myself with grief and hopelessness. The last several days have been just awful for me. I can barely hang on. I just began my hormone "meds" Sunday, and that will take a few weeks to make any difference - if it does at all. I can't reason with myself - it's pointless....I don't even believe God cares right now!! Please pray for a miracle - ask God to carry me right now'cause I'm afraid of acting out in desperation and putting and end to this emotional pain once and for all!!